Leo was born at 10.14pm on the 28th of July 2012.

 We spent a long time holding, kissing and talking to our new baby boy.It was an absolutely beautiful but heart breaking time, filled to the brim with love and sadness.

Eventually the midwife bathed him and weighed him and then I put a tiny nappy on and dressed him in an outfit me and Lee had chosen for him weeks ago.

We spent more time having cuddles and kisses and crying a thousand tears. I had a shower and then we crawled onto the sofa bed and we curled up in the middle together and slept for a while, whilst our baby Leo slept in his moses basket at the end of our bed. Opening our eyes that Sunday morning was horrific. Every single morning since Leo was born sleeping it's been horrific, it's the first thing I think of and my world crashes down around me.

On Sunday the 29th of July our parents came to see our baby and say goodbye. It was unbearably hard. Then my lovely friends Sophie and Louise came to see him too. They had been there every step of the way with me threw my pregnancy and were so exited to be a part of Leo's life. Louise bought two teddies one for me and one for Leo, which was a lovely idea and it is a very special teddy now and always will be. Sophie bought Leo a little heart stone saying LOVE, LOVE,LOVE all over it. He did look very peaceful and loved.

Our parents were there when we had Leo blessed by a lovely Chaplain lady. It was very beautiful. Our parents and friends said there goodbyes and then it came to the time when we had to do the same. We had the car  seat waiting in the car and all of his beautiful things waiting for him at home. I was bursting with excitement about using them all and him finally being at home with us. But we were leaving the hospital alone, we had to leave our beautiful baby in that horrible place.