Since you've been gone...

I have clung on to every part of you and I am desperate to keep your memory alive and I have clung to every little thing that I can.

I used to think people who keep the babies placenta are a little bit bonkers and it wouldn't cross my mind if Leo was with us, but we kept the placenta and we bought a pretty little tree and planted it on top of Leo's placenta so the tree will be a small part of him. It's planted in my parents garden so we can watch it grow.

I have kept everything to do with Leo, I have made a large memory box and wrapped it in baby boy paper, I haven't finished it yet but I plan to put photos of Leo and make it look as lovely as I can. This will be filled with everything from the hospital, memory's of my pregnancy with Leo and of my favourite outfits and blankets and teddies. It's something I will treasure forever.

For the funeral I made some envelopes decorated with little silver stars, a butterfly, details of our baby boy and the little rhyme... Twinkle, twinkle little star do you know how loved you are.... across the bottom. I was  going to get that rhyme to go across the wall when he was born to have above his moses basket, but it seems more appropriate now he is our little twinkle in the sky. I put a poem, photos of Leo and a copy of his footprints along with a heart that Leo has the same one with him forever. I just wanted people to remember him.

This is Jonathan a very proud big brother looking at his beautiful little brother on the day of his funeral. He looks so proud bless him. Xx

In the evening of Leo's funeral we sent a wish lantern up in to the sky....

but it crashed and burned into someone's garden ....   :')

We drank the champagne that had been waiting in the fridge to celebrate our baby boy finally being here.

My lovely boy sat down and wrote me and Lee a card, he must have got his inspiration from all of the sympathy cards we have. It says To Anna and Lee its such a shame that baby Leo died I will try to be good for you and I love both of you xxxxxx and then he drew a picture of Leo's grave with a chimney and heart smoke :') I thought it was so so lovely.